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Friday, February 17, 2006

Why...?
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Today i was happy go lucky.... when the moment i saw her online she said hi to me. I said hi to her too... when the moment i saw her nick name i knew tt something was wrong..so...i began to ask her..to see if there is any thing wrong... she doesn't want to tell me...i indeed was worried...but i try to cover up..but i can't.. after tt i began to tell her the things tt i want to say i told her tt i really miss the old days when i use to talk to her alot... she oso said tt she "sorta miss" tt really cheer me up abit but then i didn't noe why she said tt word "sort of" does she means wha she say tt she "miss" the old days...it jus seems tt she doesn't even miss...i was jus thinking tt mabe i jus think too much but then when i hinted to her tt she is busy tt why we can't be like those days and she told me ...."sort of" and i ans her "ok..." i really didn't noe wha to say... then i ask her whether can i call her...she told me tt i can't because she got to call many ppl..it jus seems so like she doesn't wan me to tok to her she has been giving me this reasons for quite a few time..i was thinking at first tt maybe she is really busy..but then i dun find the reason why she can call other of her guy friends but not me.... till now she didn't call me anymore... i waited and waited and waited... haha to the means of waiting throughtout the nite....she didn't call me...i was thinking and always thinking about the positive side...but then each time she did this to me i can't take it.. i jus feel soo pain... i began to think tt maybe i'm nth to her... each time when i wan to tell her how i really feel she jus seems so not affected by my feelings..but each time when she is affected by her other guy friends she is always affected...and she will go on typing about them in the blog...the msn nick name...(haha hav i ever appear in her msn nick name(except for the one and only bad moment0)) whenever i wan to meet her she always not free but when other guys wanted to meet her she agree... was it so wrong for me to like her....i felt so distance between me and her.... how much tt i want to hold her...it is jus soo impossible already.....each time i tell myself tt i still wan to continued but then ...it jus seems so impossible already...i thought this year would be a good year for me .....no....it not......it not............................................

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