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Friday, May 12, 2006

Impossible or possible?
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Some ppl says tt it is you yourself feel tt the surrounding is so impossible to you so is you, yourself have to make the differents. But to me i've tried tt before i've tried to make the differents. But in some way there is really a differents or i should say tt it is possible but in some way it dun hav any differents jus like wha i'm feeling now.. i've tried so hard but it jus always dun turn out well....i hate it..but i hav to accept it...well is not tt i like reproaching myself (i mean who likes?) but i hav been trying to find out wha is the problem between me and the "someone" i was like wondering tt whether is it tt i didn't tell how much tt i luv tt and how much tt i want to tell tt "someone" "Pls let me treasure you"... but... i noe tt i can't... firstly there is so many guys like "someone" and "someone" jus feel so impossible wif me... i noe tt "someone" didn't hav any single feeling for me before...i knew all tt....i didn't want to tell "someone" anything about it cause i didn't wan "someone" to be pondering over this and i didn't wan to irritate "someone" wif this.. I know tt in some way it will irritate "someone"... I know tt in between both of us one of us hav to get hurt... i guess tt is me...i noe tt even if i were to get ready for this... it still will hurt me in the end... tt y i didn't wan to tell "someone" about it... the most is tt i jus noe tt she is happy it will be alrite for me already. I know myself tt i didn't hav the look, didn't hav a very high education..but jus noe how to make ppl happy without them knowing my things. Is like i jus want to take all the blame myself rather then "someone"... Recently I happen to noe tt "someone" change.... tt "someone" jus answer me like those kind of stanger tt we jus met when i tok to "someone". I was thinking tt maybe "someone" is pressure by some things. But as time goes by...it continues... I was soo scare... is like I could already feel the distances between both of us...the great distances.. maybe i should expect tt our closeness at tt time couldn't last long.. I still miss the fun tt we had those days... I felt so happy wif "someone"... But rite now i know tt it is totally impossible already... but i'll still try to be happy...happy as always so tt "someone" won't be able to know wha is in me actually...

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