Sunday, February 26, 2006
Somethings jus dun come by.....
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I happen to noe somethings jus dun come by tt easily as wha i think... i used to picture the future wif who i really luv... but for sure one thing is tt i won't happen... i jus dunno... it jus seems like the more i imagine the more it won't happen... i hate it.. why is it like this..><" anyway this few days i had not really been toking to her (or maybe i hardly tok to her) i dunno really noe how is she...whether she misses me anot (argh! maybe i'm jus thinking to much anyway she is not my gf i shouldn't be thinking this way><" even thought how much i wan it) now is like i wan to be by her side... listen to her...jus like last time... but it jus seems like it is totally impossible all the guys by her side...surrounding her....it jus seems like something is disallowing me to get near to her when the guys are wif her.... i jus wanted to let her noe tt i really do miss her alot..but she always toking to those guys..and ....i jus didn't think it is the right time to tell her...i was hoping to tell her when nobody is toking to her but i'm scare tt she might get bored of wha i say (or how i feel towards her><") i'm jus scare....should i give up?.....i dun noe...i jus feel so distances towards her... i dun feel the closeness towards her again....so numb... i hate it... even i noe it take time..but then....nvm...sob....i oso dunno how long can i take this but for sur ei noe one thing is tt right now i will still continued to wait..n bear the numbness and pain...and try to be happy towards her ....(since she wanted me to be in tt way....) ....><"...
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TheTurningPoint winks
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